Hi.

I know I haven’t updated in so long. I have some posts in my drafts but I really don’t feel like posting them yet. However, I do think I owe it to y’all to give an update on my incredibly boring life. Let’s do it in bullets.

  • I’m paying for my internet nowadays, since my dad won’t pay the broadband bill. He says he’ll pay for it next month. That sucks, especially since it’s summer and I really don’t have money.
  • In relation to that, I’m not online 24/7 anymore, which isn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be.
  • I’ve been working out everyday since last week (Sundays excluded). Unfortunately my body is still far from beach sexy.
  • I usually spend my time watching movies and tv. Have you guys seen Bridesmaids? It’s really funny.
  • I know I should really read again, but for some reason I couldn’t find myself to pick a book up and start reading. Now that I think about it, I haven’t read a book in so long. Last one I read was The Catcher in The Rye and I didn’t even finish that. Hm.
  • Other than that I’m pretty much bummed. I made banana ice cream today. It was good.

In other news, hi new followers! :))

1 month ago  #diary  13 notes

I looked at you, and you smiled. The dark circles under your eyes hinted that you were very tired. I touched your face and you held my hand in place. You closed your eyes, as if to savor the moment. But I pulled away, because I had to. My heart was yours, as it forever will be. But your heart was never mine. 

3 months ago  #diary #dream  2 notes

January 28, 2012

And that was his life. There were short and occasional moments of happiness, but those were drowned by overwhelming waves of sadness. It was almost like he didn’t want the happiness anymore, because he knew of the pain that comes after. It wasn’t a pain that’d cause one to scream, no. It was a pain that you could only see in his eyes - empty, so empty that you’d wonder how he survives the days. 

4 months ago  #diary  1 note

January 14, 2012

Not trying to brag or anything, but I very well know (and I know people can see it too) that when I really put my heart into something, the outcome is more often than not beautiful or amazing. And when I don’t, you can clearly see the lack of inspiration in the work. I’ve been forced to do many things/projects that I really didn’t want to do, but because of lack of competent people who are to do it, I’d reluctantly volunteer myself. Then when it’s time to do the actual work, I can’t even find the motivation to start on it. Then I’d pretty much hate myself for even volunteering.

This is bullshit. Our outputs speak greatly of who we are. And as much as I want to put a stop to this, this usually happens with school related stuff. That means that I have to do it for the grades. I’ve had enough. 

4 months ago  #diary  4 notes

I like being alone.

tokyo-tea:

I like drinking coffee alone, and reading alone.
I like riding the bus alone, and walking home alone.
It gives me time to think, and set my mind free.
I like eating alone, and listening to music alone.

But when I see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with their best friend, I realize that even though I like being alone, I don’t fancy being lonely. The sky is beautiful, but the people are sad. I just need someone who won’t run away.

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4 months ago  #why is this so relevant #diary  174,728 notes
"

I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes.

Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You’re doing things you’ve never done before, and more importantly, you’re Doing Something.

So that’s my wish for you, and all of us, and my wish for myself. Make New Mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes. Make mistakes nobody’s ever made before. Don’t freeze, don’t stop, don’t worry that it isn’t good enough, or it isn’t perfect, whatever it is: art, or love, or work or family or life.

Whatever it is you’re scared of doing, Do it.

Make your mistakes, next year and forever.

"
— Neil Gaiman

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5 months ago  #diary #quote #Neil Gaiman  10,523 notes

My mom asked what I was doing with all the feathers.

What I wanted to say: Oh nothing, I just dyed all of them a certain shade of yellow that took three tries to perfect then dried them one by one and then drew stripes on each feather with a marker by hand all because I’m gonna make fucking awesome feather epaulettes like the one Brandon Flowers wore on the Human music video which is by the way an awesome video and an awesome song.

What I said: Uhm, wala lang.

5 months ago  #diary #these feathers are driving me crazy #I love you Brandon Flowers  5 notes
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